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Saturday, July 22, 2006 4:31 PM

⇨ i m a failure .

well i jus recived a call from ah jie . she told mi a lot of tings ah . i also got ask her y she cry . den she tell mi she felt veri cuz ytd during chinese period , i keep toking to goh goh n geok ah . den like when in class i everytime tok to ah jie de . but when comes to chiense lesson , i seldom . cuz i see geok n goh goh den have so many tings to tok . day makes ah jie wanna tok to mi veri like diffcult ah . den afer chinese is chem ah . den i thought ah jie went outside to find kelvin . so i go out of the class as i saw geok ah . den i go n di siao her . den tita ard . haha .

den after tat mr ham come le . den he give us q to do . sian . den when i tok to ah jie , she like dont care mi leh . nvm . den i ting i had done something wrong like left her alone ah . den i said oh well , nvm lah . den i ownself do . haha . den in my mind i said si ah jie , i tok to u , u like not happy . nvm lah . haha . den after bell rang , sch ends le . gwen they all come down , den gwen aks ah jie wat happen . but ah jie never said anything . den after tat ah jie cry le . i still dont noe sia . until dont noe who siad. . 4get le . after tat we walk pass chem lab saw gwen n ah jie cry ah . den i dont noe wat happen ma , den never go n console them . after tat i come out from bookshop saw ah jie n shan go le . den i saw gwen cry till eyes red . den i ask her '' gwen u need my shoulder ma , den gwen lie on my shoulder n cry ah . den she told mi wat happen . den i said acutally is is not ur fault ah . dont like ting everytime is ur fault . den after we walk down . den ah jie n shan was at playgrd . den we walk walk . joke ard with gwen . ah jie jus now told mi tat like when gwen gcry ah , got ppl console her .. but she cry like onli shan , gwen n geok . but not mi . haiz . tis make mi feel damn gulity leh . cuz i like wanted to console her but got tings stop mi . i ting cuz ah jie is putting brave infront of us ba . den i ting she too strong no need ppl console . but i m so wrong .

i m really a failure . sux in studies and friendship . haiz . ah jie keep thinking tat maybe she does not treat ppl too well , dat y like onli shan , gwen n geok console her onli . ting shan is the wan who console ah jei the most ah . den for gwen geok n mi keep console gwen . ah jie alos told mi tat maybe she wan to give her on our friendship ah . haiz . tis make mi more sad ah . cuz like ah jie is my sis n she treat mi veri good n always tolerate my nonsense n joke with mi . ah jie i promise i wont left u alone at chinese lesson n i also will be there for u whenever u need mi! i will change de ah . i jus now ask ah jie tat u ting like whenever gwen , geok n goh goh is feeling down or wat i will console them . but y u sad i never console u . she said ya . haiz . jus now when ah jie said tis feel liek crying ah . but never . tats all le . ciaoz!

hope tings will become better n better .
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